When Sorrow Walks in During Celebration...
Some days arrive with unexpected sorrows. I was getting ready for the ninth day of Ganesh Utsav, looking forward to the morning Arati at 9 a.m wiith its vibrant energy. However, a sad news through a call from my staff left me shaken.
Shri. Sehrawat, the seniormost driver at Maharashtra Sadan, had passed away suddenly.
The news felt unreal since the night before, we had been told he was recovering in the ICU. I had woken up to get ready for celebration, but found grief sitting on my doorstep. And a question rose in my mind, How could this happen in the midst of Ganesh Utsav, when our days are supposed to be filled with blessings and Bappa’s grace?
Sehrawat was more than a driver. He was dependable, kind, always cheerful and deeply committed to his work. He was trusted by Governors, Chief Ministers, Ministers, senior officers, in fact by everyone who had the privilege of sitting in a car he drove.
Recently, when Maharashtra Sadan had procured six new vehicles, Sehrawat played a key role in their selection. It was him who guided the process with care and responsibility and when the vehicles arrived, it was he who led the prayers, offering gratitude for their safe service ahead. That day his face was lit with joy and pride. Today, that very face kept flashing before my eyes and I could not believe he was no more.
As I stood at his cremation, surrounded by his family colleagues and friends, my own sorrow was deep, but I could not help thinking of his family. His sudden death was so painful for me, so how greater must be their grief? In silence, I prayed for them, for strength and courage to carry this unbearable loss.
In the evening we came together for mourning his loss but had to continue with the Ganesh Utsav. The Arati was devoid the vigour I had experienced over the last nine days but it was followed by the energetic Jhanjh Pathak and Lezim performances by the Kolhapur Sambhaji Brigade and Jijau Lezim troupe. The beats of the drums, which in the normal course would have been uplifting, felt different. My hands clapped, my feet moved, but my heart was certainly heavy.
And yet, that very paradox reflected a deeper truth that life does not pause, when we get engulfed by sorrows.
In fact, Ganesh Utsav itself teaches us this lesson of arrival and departure with the staphana and visarjan of Ganapati Bappa, as also of creation and dissolution, of joy and sorrow. The festival that celebrates Bappa as Vighnaharta, the remover of obstacles, also reminds us that obstacles, losses, and endings are an inseparable part of life.
Sehrawat’s sudden demise gives an important message to all of us:
• That we must not neglect our health no matter how demanding or important our work may be.
• That life is uncertain and fragile, so we must learn to appreciate and cherish those who are a part of our life.
• That grief and devotion coexist because remembering and celebrating life are both forms of prayer.
As we lit the evening Arati lamp and immersed ourselves in the beats of the dhol, tasha and lezim, I felt that we had not left our grief behind but were carrying it with us, just like our faith in Ganesha. Perhaps resilience is becoming aware that sorrow and celebration walk together, and holding on to memory as we move forward.
As they say, life goes on, but not untouched as it carries memories of those who have left us, shaping us with their presence even in their absence.
For me, every Ganesh Utsav in future will bring memories of Sehrawat, the man who joyfully prayed on the arrival of six new vehicles in Sadan. His spirit may have moved on, only to leave behind lessons to live fully, work sincerely, and care for our own health and for our loved ones.
As I close my reflections, I bow my head to Bappa and whisper a prayer:
“Ganpati Bappa, may you welcome Sehrawat ji with the same warmth with which he welcomed every person arriving at Delhi. May his soul rest peacefully, and may his family find the strength to bear this loss. Dear Bappa, bless us with compassion, resilience and gratitude for the gift of life.”
R. Vimala, IAS,
Resident Commissioner,
Maharashtra,
Compassionate Civil Servant &
PhD Scholar at IIT Bombay